hOrNiHeRo

...bEeN aLOng tIme...

2005-04-03T12:53:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary...

As you must have guessed from the newsflash, i had been super busy last 3 days...was a horrible experience to get up on 630 ... and work till 1 in the morning... ahaha.... but it was a good time for me as i kinda made alot of friends... eh the business type, you know the kind which will secure my place at pacesetters...helped them find some speech therapists, seems to be a good deal. had to tok like sum damn pro...haha... ms leung on the other hand had this disabilities of her tongue...toked with a little stutter in her tongue... anyway...got myself a help for the dnd... got this photographer who kinda ask whether we could collaboraste with them ... was cool hopefully it'll be successful...

well todae seems to be like a fresh new start for me... as in new com... new afreshed start.... dunno how to say... well in short it like "the perfect temperament for a new beginning". haha... well outsides kinda raining... cool atmosphere and all...

heard tht the class schedule were out for a while... got me thinking bout who will be in my class and all... seems a little afraid though hahaha... well anticipating would've been a better word...i hope i would get a better class this time round, i know my wednesday gonna suck... ipbms... you dun realli know who got in, they are like the receipy for disaster... and each carrying enough DNT to blow manhatten into bits... haha... casualties will be high thts for sure haha

anyway tomolos a new day hope i can keep up with the schedule...anyway hopefully this quote would brighten you up....

"it's all dark till you look up the pit you fell into... look above for your inspiration"

Newsflash:

Been helping out on the Global submit thingy...work from 6.30am shagged...
had been here and there...working...
Had my com reformatted haha...again...for that domain thingy...sucks
might be going to sentosa on saturday....

......bItCh...dUn YoU eVeN kNoW tHat......

2005-03-15T22:59:00.000-08:00

ok ... first things first... so what if you are depressed and all...fine your husband left you...big deal...you know what you did to us? ... guess not, you are too busy being "stressed" about your future...bloody hell dun you even know tht there are at leasrt dozens of people screwing their lifestyle to get you up your feet! Seriously if you can't do anything...dun even say you can be my mother! oh you dun give me moral support...fine...you got your own fucking business...no financial support ... hey i am fine with my job which i have to labour till 2 in the morning making sure i dun need to make you worried...but then halo....when i am in trouble the least you could do is worry... you aint some fucking operater to tell me call someone else to discuss about my problem...the worst part of it all... you said i dun even love you? please you aint good enough to be loved...iu am going to malaysia tomolo and all you could do is call my dad...at least he worries and cares...fine he aint the richest dad in the world...at least he works for a living...fine he dun realli even treat me like a son...its ok...at least he asks me how was work? all you could do is CRY... hey i had enough of that nonsense...i shed alot of tears for this fucking family...and what i get is a bitch who likes to be victimised...you say i tok fancy?...well check this out...heard of crocodile tears...please spare me the trouble of even caring for you!

Sorry peeps gotta vent my anger somewhere... haiz...btw i ll be going off to malaysia tomolo! peace at last...

Quote for the day!
"Who am I? You sure you want to know? The story of my life is not for the faint of heart. If somebody said it was a happy little tale... if somebody told you I was just your average ordinary guy, not a care in the world... somebody lied. " - Lionel

......sToRy oF lOvE...aT tHe mOuLiN RoUge......

2005-03-06T08:33:00.000-08:00

Ok... i realize thats its a little bit difficult to see the blog...so i ll put the newsflash below...haha...anyway days been good...completed all my staff...paid my bills...haha...uhm well work been cool...new faces, problem is those that i got to knoe and i feel are kinda friendly will be leaving by todae...haiz...those left behind are one's who are ppower hungry super black faced people haha...tht aint the problem...cause once the sec students are gone, it'll be onli me to find the stock and seriously swatch has like a few dozen models all placed differently...i could ask but it's kinda of like bothersome...not for me...but the old stuff....haiz...hahaha...

oh my mum found herself a job...hope she would suceed...she seriously need a attitude wake-up call...she likes the feeling of beeing victimised...but i pray hard she'll find the truth abou the world...aint no body a victim... we choose to be one...

Here's the quote for the day:
"A dwarf standing on the shoulders of a giant may see farther than a giant himself."

NEWSFLASH:

Had an internal SOLO performance at the phoneix park on fri [my balls nearly dropped...ahha...super damn scary and nervous can...my conductor said it was good...but i dun think so]
Performance as in the selected group on thurs @ the library
Moulin Rouge was good..Nicole was hot....haha...

......A dAy oF iMpErfEcTiOn......

2005-02-28T06:19:00.000-08:00

NEWSFLASH:

DAY 1 of training was done...wasn't realli wat i expected to have performed...was super SAS (super anti social)...why? dunno...
tomolo will be a the most bzst day -->SCH [UT]-->Orch [Training 4 DFS] --> SCH [Choir] --> home preperation for the next day final training test...

well todaes been complicated... uhm lappys a little screwed...at training...i was like unsociable...toking abit nia as in bcause i was like lonely haiz...screwed up life....everything was like bad can...well not complete like most of the days...gotta live with it...my current fear rite now is my grades NEWSFLASH would have told you about my absence for the next 3 days...i dunno wat to do...i realli wanto be in the monash thingy but i also need cash real bad...wat to do...my family cant realli give me the financial support gotta go out myself...

"only through perfection do we see our imperfection, how then shall we see, if imperfection is perfect enough for you?"- hOrNiHeRo

......FEAR: false evidence apperaing as real......

2005-02-28T02:55:00.000-08:00

NEWSFLASH:

Got myself a job @ DFS [finally...thankfully] wont be in school for the next three days!!!
HAPPY BELATED B'DAy CHUNKIAT

well lots of things happened after that incident...well had most of my worries gone ...all thanks to 0408!!! oh did i mention they are like the best people in the world...haha...

[hope she is not seeing this or i ll have my head cut...jialong should be in too...]

my mum's been pretty "nice" as in no funny reaction no outburst...all been well... its kinda like preparing me for the worst or something haha...oh well... like wat manda said get a gf to share my thoughts...but i wont realli wan her to be burdened by all these things...toking bout bgr...sometimes its becoming reallli lonely as in...tired?...to be alone...haha hopefully someone from baywatch come or something hahah...oh well better oh oh liao...abit the late...tomolo i ll be going for my training...がんばります...

here's the quote for the day!

"While we are focusing on fear, worry, or hate, it is not possible for us to be experiencing happiness, enthusiasm or love. " -Bo Bennett, "Year to Success"

....cRiEd aFtEr sOmE tImE.....

2005-02-25T08:36:00.000-08:00

well all's been to much for me these recent days...uhm lots of people came to tok to my parents and me...well they were giving me these false hope you knoe as in like you can get your parents back and all...been there...done tht...and all i get is pain...excruciating pain...they dun knoe how it feels to be left alone...once they all leave...they keep giving me the false hope that my family will patch abck together...
haiz...well i knoe it sounds sissy..but i realli dun wanna be hurt again...it took me a year to somehow get myself together... than they come along to give me a chance to look back...which i knoe tht if it isn't successfully...i ll be back to painful times...those times when i knew nothin could help...i fell deep...as in like no direction...it was painful i dun wanna get there again...but
...what should i do...should i not give it a shot?....
...what should i do?

"To endure is greater than to dare; to tire out hostile fortune; to be daunted by no difficulty; to keep heart when all have lost it -- who can say this is not greatness?"

.....bRiGhT lIgHt aHeAd.....

2005-02-14T07:34:00.000-08:00

todae as i was on my way to school, i met a person who realli looked like my mom...and it realli made me wonder about my mum...well some of you do know bout my family situation...its in the archives in my old blog which is currently deceased haha...well back to the lady, she was like uhm off...as in crazy...she swinged her hands here there...took off her band every now and then...she sure look like how my mum would react when she loses her grip...the truth is...i felt a pain for her as in i can relate to her...dunno how i should feel...gotta stand up strong for myself too haha...自分こそ愛してなければ誰も愛しれね！...solly...for myself to remember...

AND BTW HAPPY VALENTINE'S...to all the lovers out there...may it be a great time once again...

"Hallow the body as a temple to comeliness and sanctify the heart as a sacrifice to love; love recompenses the adorers."

.....a nEw YeAr aHead.....

2005-02-01T06:14:00.000-08:00

Saturday January 22, 2005

hi people...so sorry about all that wait tht you had to do...well finally i found the skin that i like most and yes...i ll continue to update my blog from this day forth...well situation so far...same as last year...the difference...ITS A NEW YEAR...and i ll give in my best shot...hahah alot thing happened lately but well sum it up in a few points down here:

got transffered out from NOVO (for the peeps who wanted the discount soooo sorry k)
got to be a candidate for manash advance diploma thingy (no cash$...so haiz....)
am drowning in the bills (no job so far....pleaseeeee if got lobang... )
got back from vietnam and made lots of friends (got my pic but me missing... )

guesss thazs bout it...hopefully i can make it...writing the blog thts...oh btw yesterdays wasn't published...hopefully it will todae...ガンバテ。。。

"When you make the finding yourself - even if you're the last person on Earth to see the light - you'll never forget it."

.....a nEw YeAr aHead.....

2005-01-23T22:19:00.000-08:00

hi people...so sorry about all that wait tht you had to do...well finally i found the skin that i like most and yes...i ll continue to update my blog from this day forth...well situation so far...same as last year...the difference...ITS A NEW YEAR...and i ll give in my best shot...hahah alot thing happened lately but well sum it up in a few points down here:

got transffered out from NOVO (for the peeps who wanted the discount soooo sorry k)
got to be a candidate for manash advance diploma thingy (no cash$...so haiz....)
am drowning in the bills (no job so far....pleaseeeee if got lobang... )
got back from vietnam and made lots of friends (got my pic but me missing... )

guesss thazs bout it...hopefully i can make it...writing the blog thts...oh btw yesterdays wasn't published...hopefully it will todae...ガンバテ。。。

"When you make the finding yourself - even if you're the last person on Earth to see the light - you'll never forget it."